Hello!
I spoke to my Mum today and she said ‘Darling, I don’t mean to put pressure on you but my friends are starting to ask if you’re ok…’
I am sorry for not posting for so long. The love and support I get from all you blog readers is so important to me, I won’t take that for granted.
The main reason I haven’t blogged is because I have been struggling with my energy levels, which in turn lowers my mood, I struggle to get motivated and then it becomes a vicious circle (which, thankfully, I feel as if I may have broken now).
I think that we all feel extra pressure to be all things to all people at this time of year. Our family and friends have been such a huge support this year that I feel as if I owe them more than ever but my energy levels do not live up to my intent and I am left frustrated. I have accepted that Christmas will come whether I am ready for it or not so now I’m going with the flow 🙂 and that’s not to say that I haven’t had any fun!
We had a lovely time with Dad and Chris. Chris helped me to put up the Christmas decorations which made me feel as if we were at least starting to be ready for the festivities! I also had a lovely meal out with my group of ‘birthday girls’ to celebrate Kerry’s birthday last week. As always, it was great to catch up with them all.
I have been visited by some of my cousins that I hadn’t seen for years which brought back lots of lovely memories of my youth and rekindled friendships that I know will last.
I have also started talking to my boss et al about a phased return to work so that’s something really exciting albeit a little scary for the New Year. I think it will help me to get some structure and responsibility back into my life. This situation has taken so much out of our control as I have talked about before however, along with that control is responsibility. If you can’t control something, you can’t be responsible for it; that can result in feeling a lack of purpose and I think that could also have been contributing to my low mood.
On the medical front, I have had no more issues to report which it brilliant 🙂 and my Doctor and Oncologist have agreed to switch me to an oral medication for the prevention of future blood clots so no more injections – Whoop Whoop! That was a lovely Christmas present!
We have a very busy 10 days starting tomorrow as I am sure many of you have too, but I will post again soon.
All that remains is to thank you all, from the bottom of my heart for your love and support this year, we really do appreciate it and I hope that you all have a fabulous Christmas or at least enjoy the party spirit if Christmas isn’t your thing 😉
Talk to you soon
Lots of love, Mand xxx
Well done for writing the blog! It will keep everyone happy to have heard from you. Please don’t “beat yourself up” over not doing as much as you had hoped towards Christmas, worrying will only lower your energy levels. Everyone is full of admiration for you and just hopes you have a happy time. I am thrilled you have met up with some of the family again. Keep smiling and take care. Love you loads, Mum xxx
I noticed your lack of postings but put it down to extra activities, such as making beautiful Christmas cards, thanks for ours, I’m hoping to pop yours and your silly present (very small) over tomorrow sometime, I’ll keep my distance as I have a start of a sore throat which I will keep to myself. Phased return to work sounds good. Have a lovely relaxing Xmas :0) Liz xx
Lovely to see this post, even though we do “talk” every day!! Have a lovely time with all the family (except us, we’ll be there in spirit!!) Happy Christmas and take it easy, love you XXX