It was on this day, one year ago that we received my diagnosis of stage 4 breast cancer. In many ways it seems like yesterday, in some ways a whole lifetime ago.
I have had some bad days but a lot more good ones.
I have felt terrible and I have felt invincible.
I have discovered my inner unicorn.
If I’m totally honest, it doesn’t seem any more real than it did on that morning. If I really think about it my insides turn into scurrying creatures and my head spins like a washing machine on a spin cycle and it feels just as fresh as it did then.
I have seen and heard having cancer described as a roller coaster ride a lot and I don’t have a better way to express it. The good things are so much better than they were before and the bad things are much more scary. It feels like nothing happens and yet it feels like being bombarded with random stuff just when you think you’ve got to grips with it all.
I have been humbled by the amount of love and support I have received from all directions, from all phases of my life and from all parts of the world.
Thank you for being there with us.
Talk to you soon
Lots of love Mand xxx
Blimey, a year. Everyone is ready with a hug, real or virtual, where else would we be. Love you loads my lovely xxx
Wow. What a year. You are amazing – I think everyone who has ever read your blog would agree with me. Hopefully your roller coaster will be one with many more ups than downs ❤️ Xxx
Long ago we were at a fairground on a school visit somewhere, I’m not sure where any more. You really wanted to go on the roller coaster, do you remember? But you were too scared to go on your own, so you asked me to come with you, as if sitting next to a ‘grown-up’ would make it all okay.
So we went on this crazy little train that hurtled all over the sky on rattly rails and threatened to fall off at every tight turn. My belly turned to jelly and I was terrified, but you screamed and shrieked with joyous laughter and had a whale of a time.
Hold onto that, Mandy! Hang on tight and have fun! With love and best wishes from Thain.