Today I began taking the Tamoxifen
It’s a green pill. Not a blue pill that would allow me to wake up believing whatever I wanted to or a red pill that would allow me to stay in wonderland and find out how deep the rabbit hole is… a green one. The green one should allow me to get back into a routine, establish a new normal and move forward.
The thing is we are feeling a bit in limbo. The first round of treatment is complete, today I have started with the second round but we haven’t yet had the confirmation that the first round behaved totally as expected and we don’t yet know how we will know if the second phase is working and how we will monitor its progress. We do know that we will have those questions answered on the 30th so we just have to be patient and keep busy until then.
Today has been day one of week one (aka chemo day) for the last several months. As that I didn’t have to go for chemo today, we thought it should be a celebratory day but in reality it didn’t feel like that. I am still struggling with fatigue and my eyes get sore really quickly when I am focusing on a book or a screen or a piece of paper or fabric and I think I expected to have shrugged off the side effects now – but I know it’s normal for them to hang around a bit. Again, patience is required.
In just over a week we will have the plan and it will feel like I’m back in some sort of control…I just need a little patience to get me there – that’s not so hard surely!
Talk to you soon
Lots of love Mand xxx
So many questions! I look forward to hearing that your routine is in place and your questions are answered, well done with your patience so far you are an inspiration to us all xxx
I can not comment on being patient as I have no patience whatsoever, as Richie will confirm. Keep yourself busy and let’s hope the 30th will be here before you know it. Take care.
Love you xxx
You have to be patient (not really on our genes, I know) but you’ve gone through so much, that it’s just a few days to go! I understand that there’s lots of questions! Enjoy this time without the chemo and hopefully you’ll be feeling better soon, take care of yourself. Love you lots,
Big Sister Booie XX